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Let Me Shoulder this Blame! 93

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Chapter 93 (34.5)

Hearing him bring up this topic, Su Shi was annoyed. He huffed. His movements became even more decisive. He brushed off the straw on his body and jumped up abruptly. But Esmond stopped him with a light tug.

Holding on to Su Shi’s wrist, Esmond stood up and pulled him back into his arms.

“Don’t be angry. I was wrong.”

Of course Esmond knew that the other person was not angry at the slightly out of bounds teasing. Su Shi was angry because of what Esmond did back at the plaza without consulting him.

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Embraced within Esmond’s arms, Su Shi’s anger from being robbed of the pot was mostly dissipated, but he was still not resigned. He leaned back against the crook of Esmond’s neck and muttered, “I need to take back the criminal charge and shoulder it. You have to help me.”

Esmond’s chest stuttered and his arms tightened around the other. He subconsciously held his breath, “Why?”


Su Shi pondered for a long while. Then he lifted his eyes and looked at Esmond without dodging or avoiding: “This is my learning experience, I have things that I must shoulder, I cannot have other people substitute for me.”

The child of God descends to the human world, and needs to go through hardships, displacement, betrayal, life and death, before he can wash clean all the worldly affairs of the secular world.

Esmond was shocked. He stared at him in a daze without speaking.

No wonder he would know so many secrets! No wonder the God of Light would take the initiative to shield him!

A sudden anxiety bloomed from the bottom of his heart. Esmond opened his mouth, but in the end he could not vocalize any of his questions. He could only remain silent, and tightened his hold on the other person.

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Su Shi felt a little guilty for pretending to be a celestial being. Then he thought about that unreliable God of Light, and his conscience cleared in the blink of an eye.

His life was already edited into a film. Even if he pretended to be the child of God, that God of Light should be willing to cooperate.


Esmond hugged him tight. His voice unconsciously became raspy.

He wanted to ask how long the other person could stay, if he could help in any way, and he also wanted to ask how everything would ultimately conclude in the end.

But he dared not speak.

Even if all of this was just flowers in a mirror and the moon reflected in the lake*, it was still a fantasy that he was most grateful for.

[*T/N: flowers in a mirror and the moon reflected in the lake = viewing things through rose-tinted spectacles]

His heart settled, and he took a deep breath to speak, but then his gaze suddenly landed on a shadow in the corner, and his eyes flashed with vigilance.

The person in his arms shifted and looked at him with a bit of doubt.

The plan quickly took shape in his head. Esmond lowered his voice and spoke fast into Su Shi’s ear.

“There is another way. Go look for the archbishop. He is respected and he will uphold justice. Tell him that I was coerced and that I had no choice but to plead guilty. The trial files are all preserved. As long as the papacy investigates thoroughly, the truth will be known…”

“Understood, I will go now.”

He happened to have the file in his arms. Hearing that things could still take a turn for the better, Su Shi’s eyes unconsciously brightened. He nodded and was about to walk to the door, but Esmond held him back again. He raised his eyes to hint at the iron window bars that had been quietly melted by the flames.

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Su Shi understood. He was just about to go over, but then he suddenly turned back towards Esmond, raised his hand, and wrapped it around the juncture of his neck and shoulder.

Looking at the paladin who wanted to store up even the littlest bit of energy, Esmond was stunned. But his expression immediately gentled into a smile. He closed his eyes, wrapped his arms around the other person, and earnestly kissed him.

The injury on his shoulder had been unconsciously healed. Su Shi retreated with satisfaction, dexterously leaped up, and silently rolled out along the bars.

Esmond’s eyes remained fixed on him. He smiled at the paladin’s now healthy and nimble figure. Finally, relief chased away the misty waters from his eyes.

He was selfish after all.

The child of God, who came to the human world for practical experience, wanted to leave the world through death.

In that case, could the prayers of a lowly human be accepted? By protecting the paladin’s life, could he delay their inevitable parting?

The other party was not afraid of death, but his heart was full of yearning.

The paladin’s figure disappeared outside the window, and the sound of footsteps faded away.

Esmond sighed extremely lightly and turned around calmly. His gaze landed on the sheet of deadly still darkness outside the door.

“Thank you for your willingness to wait until now, Your Majesty. Are you planning to come and execute me personally?”

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The author has something to say:

Su Shi: Found the pot! (/≧▽≦)/~┴┴

#Wait, there seems to be something forgotten.

#Where’s the bento*???

Σ( ° △ °三 °Д °;)っ

[*T/N: The author does indeed say “bento” (便当 bian dang), which means lunchbox, and not “pot” (锅 guo). I’m not really sure what the author is referring to in this instance.

Thank you to the readers who explained this reference to me! So the explanation for the bento is this: when the character an actor is playing dies before the filming of a movie/series ends, they get a lunchbox (for completing their part in the movie/series). In this case, Su Shi is the actor, and Ivan is his character. If Su Shi doesn’t get a bento, that means his character, Ivan, doesn’t die.]

14 thoughts on “Let Me Shoulder this Blame! 93

  1. I see lunchbox a lot in entertainment settings as a reference to the character dying and the actor getting sent off with a lunchbox. So it’s slang for dying. But that might not be it here? Thanks for translating!

  2. Thank for the chapter. I think the bento here is the lunchbox an actor gets when he finishes filming(his character dies), before the filming od the whole movie/series ends. Esmond was talking about protecting Su Shi, so he will not die, so for Su Shi: no death=no bento.

  3. By bento they mean death, so its like kicking the bucket, but here its getting a bento. Idk how to explain it well?, I hope you understood, thanks for the chapter ❤

  4. In the author’s note Su Shi says “where’s the bento” bc usually actors who die early on in tv shows will collect their lunchbox (the bento) and leave the show. He’s just asking to die more quickly lmao
    Thank you for translating!

  5. Getting a lunchbox should mean getting death/killed off.

    In movie entertainment novels when the character the actor is playing is killed off on set they recieve a lunchbox.

    ml let su shi have his pot back because he needs it but Su shi isnt getting his lunchbox because ml is trying to keep him alive longer.

    1. Thank you for the explanation! ^-^

      And the last part of your comment made me laugh. I can just imagined the scene:
      MC is looking for the pot.
      ML hands him the pot.
      MC cries tears of joy.
      ML secretly throws out the lunchbox while smiling gently at the MC.

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