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Chapter 4.3 – Mental Disorder

Xue Jing Yi was indeed really pitiful right now, but who would show pity for his Huang Yi? This youth was the most innocent one of all. Thinking of that, Xue Zi Xuan held the boy tightly against his chest and covered his eyes, which were looking towards the mobile hospital bed.

Xue Li Dan Ni and Xue Rui were worried that Xue Jing Yi would form a relationship with Huang Yi. Xue Zi Xuan was also worried about this. In this life, Xue Jing Yi would die. At that time, instead of having to watch the youth cry sadly, it was better to separate them now.
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A warm hand lay across his eyes and blocked his sight of the hospital bed that hurriedly slid past. Zhou Yun Sheng pulled back slightly. His eyelashes brushed against the warm palm, eliciting a low chuckle.

This man could still laugh at such a time? This beast! Zhou Yun Sheng was speechless at how heartlessly cold-blooded Xue Zi Xuan was.

Xue Jing Yi, who was lying on the hospital bed, saw how cold and indifferent her brother’s eyes were as he looked at her. Her heart, which was already throbbing with pain, shattered completely. She called for “Big Brother” with all her might and then fell into a coma.

Xue Li Dan Ni screamed fiercely and urged the doctor to hurry. She couldn’t bother with the son who was only looking on from the sidelines. Fu Bo and Xiao Wang pushed the bed from behind and entered the elevator. When they looked back they found the young master standing at the other end of the corridor, staring at them with deep and unpredictable eyes.

Not even waiting for the elevator door to close, Xue Zi Xuan hugged the boy in his arms and turned away. The pace was slow and steady. Fu Bo and Xiao Wang could not help but look at each other. Through each other’s eyes, they could see their own bitter disappointment and disbelief reflected back. The young master’s lack of feelings seemed to have become more serious, and not even the young lady could arouse the slightest emotions in him. This young master was terrifying.

Zhou Yun Sheng endured and endured, but finally he couldn’t restrain himself and said in a low voice, “You’re not going to go with them and see?”

“No need to go. Xue Jing Yi can’t die.” If she didn’t toss herself, she would live longer than anyone else. In his last life, no matter how much stimulation that girl had she was able to overcome it. Every day in the darkest recess of her mind she nursed the disgusting thought of murder behind everyone’s back. She stayed in the cold basement day and night to watch bloody surgery videos. Normal people would not be able to stand such actions and over a long time may become crazy, but she did not. Instead she took care of herself and got stronger day by day until her body could withstand the risk of a heart transplant surgery, and then she attempted murder on her twin.

Xue Zi Xuan could not spare pity on such a person. Using the words “weak and pitiable” to describe her was a joke. If she did not give up hope on surviving, she would not die from organ failure.

“Nothing bad will happen to her.” It was inconvenient to explain more to the teenager. He ruffled the youth’s somewhat long hair and placated him with a smile.

“But it looks very serious. We really don’t have to go and see her? What kind of illness does she have?” Zhou Yun Sheng pretended to be anxious, while conveniently sounding out the situation and probing for information.

“Congenital heart disease.” Xue Zi Xuan said frankly, but he did not intend to explore this topic in depth.

“Let’s go take a look anyway, I really don’t feel relieved.” Zhou Yun Sheng grabbed on to the young man’s sleeve, revealing a pleading look. Emotionally and logically, he must go see Xue Jing Yi. After all, she was Huang Yi’s only living relative in this world.

Xue Zi Xuan’s emotional deficiency disorder could only be cured without medicine in the face of the youth. Because of the teenager he felt sadness, mourning, and regret, but it was also because of him that he knew what joy and happiness were. He was his everything. So he could not reject any of the youth’s requests. He could only sigh helplessly and lead him to the emergency room.

Zhou Yun Sheng felt like he switched places with Xue Jing Yi. He couldn’t help but touch his face, wondering if the system took Xue Jing Yi’s protagonist halo and placed it over his head instead. This kind of thought flashed past, and he blinked his eyes, but he didn’t take it seriously.

When the two went to the emergency room, the red light indicating operation in process was still not extinguished. Xue Li Dan Ni was tired and sitting on a chair. Fu Bo paced up and down the hallway. Xiao Wang hid in the stairway to smoke.

Hearing the sound of footsteps, Xue Li Dan Ni lifted her head to look. She let out a breath of gratification and said, “You’ve come.” Her son finally came. In the end he could not let go of his little sister. She was relieved. If something happened to her daughter and her son’s emotional deficiency got worse, she didn’t know if her family could still be considered a complete family.

Xue Zi Xuan was silent. He held the teenager and sat on the far end away from her. He waited with an expressionless face.

Zhou Yun Sheng couldn’t be like Xue Zi Xuan, sitting expressionlessly like some old god. Right now he was playing the role of an orphan who thirsted for family, someone who cared very much about his sister. He rushed over to Fu Bo and asked, “How is Jing Yi? Will she be okay?”

Fu Bo stabbed him with a sharp gaze, as if he was very dissatisfied with his presence, but he could not excoriate him, because the young master had brought him here.

Xue Li Dan Ni did not have such misgivings and berated him sharply, “Why did you bring him? Where is Xiao Wang? Hurry and have Xiao Wang send him back.” She must not let the teenager know the true condition of her daughter, let alone let him hear any words related to heart-changing surgery. It would add a lot of trouble.

“Auntie, I want to stay here and see my little sister.” Zhou Yun Sheng showed a grieved expression, his face was white, and his eyes were tearful. Xue Zi Xuan felt like his heart was being cut out. He had already vowed that in this life he would never let the youth suffer any harm.

“Xue Jing Yi is Xiao Yi’s biological sister. He is more qualified to stay here than we are.” He spoke openly. Then he stood up and pulled the boy into his arms. He held the back of the youth’s head, pressing his little face into his chest, and kissed the top of his soft hair.

“But Jing Yi’s illness…” Xue Li Dan Ni remembered that the youth came from the rural countryside where there was a dearth of information. He may know what a heart attack was, but he may not necessarily know that the heart disease could be treated by heart-changing surgery, so she stopped speaking just in time.

Xue Zi Xuan gave her a deep look and then drew the youth back towards his original seat. Xiao Wang heard the madam calling for him, so he stubbed out his half-smoked cigarette, hurriedly ran back into the hallway, and asked, “What happened?”

“Nothing.” Xue Li Dan Ni waved her hand.

Xue Zi Xuan smelled the scent of smoke clinging to Xiao Wang’s body. He got up while pulling the boy up with him, and said, “Give me a cigarette.”

“Sure. What?” Xiao Wang reflexively took out the cigarettes. Then he realized that the person who asked him was the young master who never smoked or imbibed alcohol. He abruptly froze.

Xue Zi Xuan was faster and had already nabbed a cancer stick. He tightened his hold on the youth’s shoulder, and half dragged half carried him into the stairwell.

“Do you mind if I smoke?” With his back leaning against the wall, he expertly held the cigarette between his fingers, and waved it at the youth.

“I don’t mind. Go ahead.” Zhou Yun Sheng gave him a strange look. He memorized all the information on Xue Zi Xuan. The other party never smoked, never drunk alcohol, never got close to women, and never gambled. He was like a perfect saintly existence. It was completely different from this decadent and gloomy young man before him.

If the system’s detection ability weren’t so powerful, he would’ve suspected someone of switching out the original Xue Zi Xuan.

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Chapter 4.2 – Mental Disorder

Zhou Yun Sheng was quiet during the whole process, passively cooperating, and only when Xue Zi Xuan looked over would he reveal a grateful look, a pure expression, or a melancholy face. When it was a grateful look, the other party would reveal a feeling of guilt, heartache, and self-blame. When it was a melancholy face, the other side would become more empathetic, and hold him in comfort. When it was a pure expression, this was a bit difficult to say, the other party seemed to be infatuated?
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Thinking up to here, Zhou Yun Sheng trembled a bit. He must’ve read the other person incorrectly. While his imagination was running wild, outside in the corridor, came the clack-clack sounds of high-heeled shoes hitting the floor. The steps sounded very rushed. In but a few seconds, Xue Li Danni and Xue Jing Yi appeared in the clinic, followed by Fu Bo.

“Why did you come all the way here? If Xiao Wang hadn’t called, I would’ve thought that you’d gone missing.” Her elegant eyebrows knotted together. Then she pointed upstairs and said, “I’ve already contacted Director Liu in neuropathy. Go up and get a few CT scans. If the situation is not clear, just stay in the hospital.”

Xue Zi Xuan, who was hounding the doctor with questions up until now, suddenly stopped as his expression turned cold. He put the x-ray scans into the manila envelope, took hold of the youth’s thin arm, and said softly, “The doctor said that it’s okay. We’ll go down to the pharmacy to get the prescription. After that, we’re going home.” He walked pass right in between Xue Li Dan Ni and Xue Jing Yi, not even giving them a glance out of the corner of his eye.

Xue Li Dan Ni was treated like a transparent person by her son several times. He had also changed his address towards her from “mom” to “mother,” which felt indifferent and alienating. It was as if they had returned to a decade prior when he had yet to receive psychotherapy. At that time, he did not recognize anyone, and cared about no one. He only had the piano in his eyes. It was as if the piano was his whole world, making her both distressed and sad.

But now, this kind of distress and sadness was far worse than before, because Xue Zi Xuan had transferred his attitude towards the piano to Huang Yi, treating the youth as if he were his world, and even his life.

Xue Li Dan Ni spent so much effort on her son. The care she gave her son was even more than the care she gave to a daughter with a heart disease. So how could she not understand his every move and thought?

Since waking up, his gaze had always stayed on Huang Yi. There has never been a moment when he looked away. He held the boy in his arms wherever he went, treating the youth like a valuable and fragile treasure. This kind of change was so inexplicable and incredible. She was a bit skeptical. Did Huang Yi cast some dark magic on her son?

“Where are you going? You come back right this instant! Your mom is telling you to go get a check up. Don’t tell me you think it’s to harm you.” Seeing her son leaving without acknowledging her, Xue Li Dan Ni hurried to catch up to him.

Xue Jing Yi followed close behind. She had been running around for a day. Her body was already at the limit of its endurance. But she could not fall. Even if her eyes and nose were filled with sourness, even if her heart was eroded by her, she must not fall, and she must not let her brother take Huang Yi to go further and further.

No, maybe I’m wrong, and I should fall down and see whom my brother will choose? It was a younger sister who he grew up together with versus a stranger who he has known for a few months. It was like a light bulb went off in her head. In an instant, the stubborn Xue Jing Yi fell down. She grasped the wall to take a few more steps, tried her hardest to shout “Big Brother,” and then her body crumpled to the floor.

“Jing Yi, what’s wrong, Jing Yi? Quick, doctor! Come!” Xue Li Dan Ni quickly ran to her daughter and shouted anxiously.

“Young Miss, Young Miss, wake up, where is your medicine?” Fu Bo could not find the emergency medicine in the bag that Xue Jing Yi always carried around, and suddenly his face turned white. Fortunately, this was a hospital. Soon, doctors and nurses heard what happened and rushed over and carried the young miss onto a mobile hospital bed.

When Xiao Wang heard the sound, he turned his head, and he immediately panicked. He said hurriedly, “Not good, the lady’s sickness is acting up.”

Zhou Yun Sheng also leaned over and stood on his tiptoes. He looked at the gathered crowd of people. He saw Xue Jing Yi lying on a mobile hospital bed with a doctor performing chest compressions on her. Several nurses were pushing the bed to the elevator and shouting at the pedestrians blocking the passage.

Xiao Wang promptly jumped aside. He waited for the hospital bed to roll pass and then he followed behind Xue Li Dan Ni and Fu Bo, who were out of their wits, ready to lend a hand. Xue Jing Yi did not fall completely unconscious. Her eyes were half-opened. As the bed passed by Xue Zi Xuan, she turned her head to look at him. She could no longer breath on her own, her forehead was covered in cold sweat, some fell down the side of her jaw, and some hung in the corner of her eye, like tears.

Her dry and cracked lips opened and closed slightly, silently calling for something, looking carefully, it seemed like she was calling for “Big Brother.” Her arm lifted feebly and then fell heavily, unable to grasp onto her brother’s sleeve that was not that far away.

Xue Jing Yi’s eyes felt sore and she could no longer hold back the tears. She shuddered and cried. Her lips jerked and she called “Brother,” but her barely audible voice was swallowed up by the ventilator.

Her look of desperation was really pitiful that even Zhou Yun Sheng’s heart felt unbearable, let alone Xue Li Dan Ni. She was full of grievance and complaint when she berated her son, “What are you still doing? Didn’t you see your sister calling for you? Come and take hold of her hand.” When her daughter was at her weakness, she didn’t care for anyone else. She only wanted Xue Zi Xuan. Everyone in the Xue family knew this.

Zhou Yun Sheng took back his unneeded sympathy, and quickly glanced at the young man. He was slightly surprised. Xue Li Dan Ni spoke wrong. Xue Zi Xuan was not in a daze at all. His gaze was dark and the light in his eyes was cold. He had one hand around the youth’s shoulder and one hand inserted in his pocket. Although his posture was quite straight, his muscles were very relaxed. It was obvious that he was extremely calm. There was no anxiety and panic over a seriously ill family member.

Was this still the same Xue Zi Xuan who was cold to everyone but only gentle to and pampered Xue Jing Yi? What happened to him? Zhou Yun Sheng did not believe that a person could have such a huge change in one evening. Something big that he did not know about must have happened. But even if he pondered this until his brain burst, he would never have guessed that this man was reborn again.

Xue Zi Xuan knew from his last life that sickness and weakness were Xue Jing Yi’s most powerful weapons. No matter what mistakes she made, she just had to clutch at her chest and make an expression of discomfort. Then other people would forgive her unconditionally, and give her what she wants on a silver platter. Over time, she took other people’s efforts for granted, even the life of a twin brother, she would not hesitate to seize.

So in this life he did not intend to indulge her again. So what if her body was weak? So what if she was nearing death? This was life. This was the fate she bore when she was born. It wasn’t her fault, nor was it anyone else’s fault. This was something she must shoulder on her own. But she could not steal another person’s life to prolong her own life.

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Chapter 4.1 – Mental Disorder

Since the hospital did not belong to his family there was no exclusive parking space. Xiao Wang went around and around the parking lot for a long time before he managed to grab a spot. With his forehead covered in sweat, he pulled into the parking space.
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Zhou Yun Sheng twisted his butt around. He wanted to get off from the young man’s knees, but he didn’t want to soil his socks. Also, it was winter right now and it was very cold outside. If he stepped outside like this he was sure to freeze a layer of skin off the soles of his feet. Thinking about this, he secretly scolded Xue Zi Xuan’s viciousness. Xue Zi Xuan deliberately threw his shoes into the front seat so that he couldn’t retrieve it even if he wanted to.

“Don’t move around.” Xue Zi Xuan patted the youth’s plump buttocks, and his gloomy eyebrows finally revealed a hint of lucidity. He placed the teenager on the seat, opened the door, and got out of the car. Then he went to the front passenger seat and stooped down to grope around the car floor.

Watching this scene, a sheet of black lines descended upon Xiao Wang’s head. He couldn’t understand why the young master had to throw the little country bumpkin’s shoes to the front seat. Isn’t he just creating extra trouble when there was none? However, it was only a silent criticism. As someone dedicated to his work, he still leaned over to help look for the shoes. The shoes were really deep under the seat and got stuck.

Zhou Yun Sheng sat cross-legged in the backseat and watched the two big men groping about. The strange feeling in his heart got thicker. Xue Zi Xuan got discharged from the hospital this time, but it seemed like there was really something wrong with his brain. Inexplicably, he started treating him well. Why? Could it be that Zhou Yun Sheng exposed some mistake, so now Xue Zi Xuan was being vigilant? Was Xue Zi Xuan trying to appease him in order to dispel his misgivings?

But that shouldn’t be. In the eyes of the Xue family, Huang Yi was just a country boy who didn’t know anything. And his person was already detained in the Xue manor. Even if he found out the truth, he still couldn’t run away. There was absolutely no need for them to please him. They could just directly use violence to threaten him.

So what was Xue Zi Xuan trying to accomplish by being so gentle and considerate? While Zhou Yun Sheng was mired in confusion, Xue Zi Xuan finally got the shoes out from below the seat and squatted outside the door. He said softly, “Xiao Yi, let’s put on your shoes.”

“Oh. I will do it myself.” Zhou Yun Sheng immediately returned to his senses and leaned half of his body out.

“Your hands are wrapped up like this, how can you put them on? Let me help you.” Xue Zi Xuan stared at the youth’s hands covered in gauze and inadvertently asked, “These days you’ve been showering, dressing, and eating by yourself?”

“En.” Zhou Yun Sheng’s foot was forcefully tugged over by the young man. His expression was timid, but his heart was full of malice. He really wanted to lift his foot up and ferociously stomp on the young man’s handsome face. But in the end, he managed to restrain himself.
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As Xue Zi Xuan put the shoes on for Zhou Yun Sheng he said, “From now on, don’t do it yourself. If you want to do something, tell me, and I’ll do it for you.” These hands, once known as the world’s treasures, could not suffer any more damage, especially since he was the one who injured them.

Xue Zi Xuan’s eyebrows knotted again and he sped up his movements, but when it came to tying the shoelaces he was still very clumsy. Zhou Yun Sheng acted like he was flattered by the favor from someone superior and agreed, but in actuality, he didn’t really care. He guessed that this young master probably wanted to raise a pet. When his mood was good he would attend to the pet with great care, and when his mood was bad he would kick the pet away with one foot. He just didn’t know how long this feeling of freshness could last.

When one person was treating another person with kindness, whether it was due to some ulterior motive or due to a moment of whimsy, there would still be a bit of sincerity during the interval of kindness. If the days were short, then there was nothing to it. But if the days were longer, then he could calculate himself into a plan. Without the control of the Villain System, Zhou Yun Sheng could have used Xue Xi Xuan’s goodwill to slowly seduce him and soften him to achieve the purpose of getting out of trouble.

However, it was only a delusional thought. Once he tries to leave the Xue manor, or even if he just has thoughts of counterattacking, he would suffer the most severe punishment from the system. So that plan simply wouldn’t work, and therefore, he had no mood to play with Xue Zi Xuan. He could only feign civility.

The teenager walked silently to his side. Looking at the youth from top to bottom, Xue Zi Xuan observed his delicate face, his quiet and adorable temperament, his gentle and clever countenance, and he smiled contentedly. Such a calm and quiet moment, it was as if they had returned to the previous world, to the time before the experience of betrayal and murder, before the blood and pain.

Exactly what kind of miracle was it that brought him the scene before his eyes? He sincerely thanked the power that brought him back. He even thanked that fallen god.

Zhou Yun Sheng was only walking, yet Xue Zi Xuan still had to look at him. Go look at your mom! Xue Zi Xuan seemed to be staring so hard that his eyes were turning red. Is this guy mental? The man was grabbing his waist so tightly, that he was partially carrying him as they walked. His toes could barely touch the ground. Zhou Yun Sheng, in order to stabilize his body, had to hold onto Xue Zi Xuan’s not very strong arms. In his head he was frantically shouting silent curses at the man.

“System, run a scan to see if someone else is wearing Xue Zi Xuan’s body,” he communicated with the system in his mind.

“In one space there can only be one system. The host is over thinking. If a foreign soul invades the world without permission, it will be killed by the Lord God.” The system explained coldly.

Zhou Yun Sheng calmed down. He glanced at the young man with a puzzled look. Suspended on the young man’s arm, they continued to move forward. Someone was willing to be his tool. What could he have against it? Go for it! To be able to enslave this noble son before he died, it could be regarded as a profit. With such a mood, he no longer thought about the transformation of this person, and instead, enjoyed it with a peace of mind.

Xue Zi Xuan clearly felt that the boy’s resistance to himself was decreasing. He even took the initiative to cling onto his arm and put the weight of his body on him. This made Xue Zi Xuan ecstatic and more eagerly attentive. He arranged everything from top to bottom. On the contrary, Xiao Wang, this servant became a thoroughly idle person, and only helped to keep an eye on the young boy when the young master was waiting in line.

“You say you, you’ve only hurt your fingers, but your legs aren’t broken, is this worthwhile*? The young master is being too good to you, in the future, you should be grateful.” Xiao Wang was very dedicated to brainwashing the boy, and his eyes were faintly disdainful.

[*T/N: 犯得着 fan de zhao: worthwhile (often in rhetorical questions, implying not worthwhile)]

Zhou Yun Sheng nodded his head in promise, but sneered in his heart: En, grateful, take care of me once or twice, and you want me to dig out my heart, this kind of grace, why don’t you take it?

In the meantime, Xue Zi Xuan took a waiting number, and made a phone call to open a back door. Then he took the boy directly upstairs. The chief physician of the orthopedics department was waiting in the office. He asked about the situation, and then he opened up a file and took some x-rays. The result came out quickly. The bones were not hurt. They only needed to use an ointment to massage away the clotted blood, and the fingers will be restored to normal in a few days.

“Doctor, are you sure? It really won’t affect the flexibility of the fingers?” Xue Zi Xuan asked repeatedly.

“Yes, it’s okay, go back and drink some bone soup or something to nourish it. Also, help him remove this gauze. Wrapped like this the whole day, it is actually not conducive to dissipating the clotted blood. Just now, I helped him massage some medicine on his fingers. If you still don’t believe me, wait a few hours and check again. The bruise will certainly disappear.” Pestered so by Xue Zi Xuan, the chief physician didn’t know whether to laugh or cry. He really wished he could pick up a broom and sweep them out. Asking the same thing five or six times, was there still meaning to it?

The driver Xiao Wang also felt embarrassed, but even more so, he found the scene unimaginable. This overly meticulous, nagging young man was like an old grandmother. Was this really the Xue family’s lofty, untouchable, and indifferent young master? This change was too big. It was really hard to accept.

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Chapter 3.7 – Back to the Human World

An hour later, the car stopped in the underground parking lot of the hospital. Zhou Yun Sheng opened the door with feelings of salvation. Along the way, he was first held in the young man’s arms, and later when he started struggling, he was directly pressed into his arms, his head resting on his shoulder. Soon, he felt that his chest was stuffy and had difficulty breathing, so he couldn’t help but struggle more and was then directly hugged onto his lap, sitting with his legs opened, his back pressed against his hard chest. This position was like a young dad holding a 5-year-old naughty son, fearing that he would jump around in the car, or open the door and fall out.

Zhou Yun Sheng was extremely uncomfortable and struggled time after time again. Each time after he struggled, he would be held a little more tightly by the youth. The person who looked very thin, but had so much strength, almost broke his waist. This is simply a disguised murder. (T/N: LOL ZYS)

Later, he simply gave up and completely relaxed his body and fell in the arms of the young man*, on the contrary, the other party lightened his force, and cautiously hugged him, his chin resting on the youth’s shoulder while sighing in satisfaction. The hot breath he breathed out caused Zhou Yun Sheng’s ears to turn red.

[*T/N: young man- from now on young man refers to XZX while youth refers to ZYS, because the author barely uses their names but instead uses 青年 & 少年 respectively, which basically are all referring to young people but I guess in this case 青年 is older?]

To be honest, if he had not known that this person wanted to dig out his heart, just relying on his handsome appearance, slender and tall figure, and supreme and noble aura, Zhou Yun Sheng might have been tempted by the other party. (T/N: he doesn’t anymore so…) After he finally got to the hospital, he couldn’t help but sigh with relief, and impatiently grabbed the doorknob, but was heavily pulled back.

Xue Zi Xuan couldn’t stand the youth leaving his arms. He was afraid that his rebirth was just an illusory dream, and he didn’t know when he would wake up and still be floating around in the endless void, waiting for another chance. So he needed to confirm the existence of the boy, needed to keep him by his side every second and minute of the day because he had no time to waste.

Sensing that the youth was trying to leave him, he tightened his arms around the youth’s waist instantly, and opened the door on the other side, using a forceful position to carry him out of the car. The youth was already sixteen years old, but his body was not fully developed yet, his body petite and thin, allowing Xue Zi Xuan to easily lift him across his shoulder.

“Let me down, I can walk by myself,” Zhou Yun Sheng reminded him with a red face. He could feel the young man’s palm resting on his butt. This was the first time that he had been so intimate with a man, and he was slightly uncomfortable.

Xue Zi Xuan did not stop and walked directly into the elevator before pressing the button for the top floor. The driver Xiao Wang walked beside him and had an expression like he had just seen a ghost. The young master had not even hugged his own mother or father, or his adopted sister, but he hugged this country bumpkin and refused to let go like he was a priceless treasure, his brain must really be broken.

The doctor had received a call from Xue Li Dan Ni earlier, so when he saw the eldest young master of the Xue family walking into his office, he wasn’t surprised and instead instructed the nurse to take him for a brain CT.

Xue Zi Xuan put down the boy in his arms, with one hand on his shoulder, and the other wrapped around his waist, and deeply said: “I don’t have a problem, help Xiao Yi take a hand CT, as soon as possible.”

“What happened to his hand?” This doctor just happened to be the one paid by Xue Jia to do the heart-changing surgery, and knew that the youth was only a sacrificial lamb that would be killed sooner or later, so whether or not his hand was treated was not important, hence couldn’t help but feel a little impatient.

Xue Zi Xuan only then remembered the relationship between the doctor and the Xue family, and immediately led the youth to leave without saying anything. The driver Xiao Wang shouted a few times and saw that he was not going to return, so he could only quickly catch up to him.

“Young master, why aren’t we seeing the doctor anymore?” After they got into the car, Xiao Wang asked confused.

Zhou Yun Sheng was placed in the young man’s lap and felt very awkward and uncomfortable. While secretly moving his butt to find a comfortable sitting position, he criticized in his heart that the young man’s actions were like the weasel giving the chicken a New Year’s greetings – without good intentions*. It had been so long after he was injured that the young man had thought to bring him to the doctor, but left after only saying a sentence. If he really wanted to pretend so much, he should have done it all the way, with his incomplete facade, whom was he trying to fool?

[*T/N: weasel giving the chicken a New Year’s greetings 拜年） – without good intentions – basically it is a proverb where the weasel visits a chicken trying to eat it but pretends to be all nice to let the chicken’s guard down, but the chicken figures out and the weasel has a bad end.]

Xue Zi Xuan noticed that the youth was sitting in a state of uneasiness. Seeing that he was moving further and further away, and was about to fall off his lap onto the seat next to him, he reached under the youth’s feet and use the position that one would use to hold a baby to cradle him in his arms, conveniently took his shoes off for him.

Zhou Yun Sheng’s expression turned dark and didn’t dare to move at all. Move a fart*, I don’t even have my shoes anymore, even if I want to run away I won’t be able to.

[*T/N: Move a fart- Google translate is such a meme… but there really is no better way to say this hahaha. Basically, in Chinese it is 动个屁, 个屁 is somewhat of a swear word in Chinese but directly translates to a fart, so ZYS is sarcastically swearing. It’s kind of like “Move? Like hell, I can move?”]

Xue Zi Xuan just smiled and touched the cheeks of the youth, which had puffed up* because of his sadness. “Go to a different hospital,” he instructed.

[*T/N: puffed up – like how when you blow air into your cheeks and it swells]

“But our hospital is the best, why can’t we go there?” Xiao Wang drove the car into a narrow lane and deliberately slowed the car down.

“Go to a public hospital.” Xue Zi Xuan did not bother to explain. After being reborn once, all of the people who were involved in the murder, he did not want to see again. Moreover, how could he let a doctor with no ethics treat his beloved youth?

Xiao Wang sensed that the Young Master was acting particularly strangely today, and particularly forceful, completely different from the noble and elite pianist.

So in reality, it was not that Young Master didn’t want to go to the doctor, but it was that he wanted to go to a different hospital. But why? Isn’t this hospital under the Xue family? Their medical proficiency was also top notch. Zhou Yun Sheng looked at the young man with a confused look.

“The doctor at that hospital doesn’t have medical ethics, let’s not go there in the future anymore. Xiao Yi, sorry, I’m really sorry, forgive me…” Xue Zi Xuan saw the questioning look on the youth’s face, and explained unclearly, when finished, he rested his head on the youth’s shoulder, before sighing with incomparable sadness, yet incomparable satisfaction.

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Chapter 3.6 – Back to the Human World

He thought he had arrived in time, but didn’t think that in the end, he was still too late. The remorse, pain and bitter regret made Xue Zi Xuan unable to breathe. With difficulty, he took in a breath, and then half dragged, half carried the youth down the stairs. “Go to the hospital,” he said hoarsely.

“Yes, yes, we’ll go to the hospital. Where’s Xiao Wang? Tell him to get the car from the garage now.” Xue Li Dan Ni came back to her senses and ran to the door shouting, not caring about her image. Ever since they reached home, her son had been behaving too strangely, clutching Huang Yi and wordlessly crying, his shoulders and back trembling. Even she felt moved to sorrow upon seeing the scene.

She was very certain that these two had not had many interactions with each other, and despite living in the same house, their relationship was no better than two strangers meeting on a street. Whatever was causing her son grief, it should be in no way related to Huang Yi. But he rejected and ignored everyone else, and held on tightly to Huang Yi instead. She really couldn’t think of an explanation for this situation, hence her only option was to send her son back to the hospital and have his head thoroughly examined.

Xue Jing Yi stared at the two people who were locked in a tight embrace, her nails biting into her palms, leaving bloody crescents. The resulting tingling sensation of pain seemed to travel directly to her heart, making her vision spin. She forcefully suppressed her dizziness. She cannot afford to faint now and leave Huang Yi alone together with her elder brother.

Since the day Huang Yi arrived, she had been unable to shake off this obsession, which inexplicably took root in her mind. Sure enough, Huang Yi’s presence heralded trouble. If he wanted to snatch any other thing of hers away, she wouldn’t be moved to stop him, but only her elder brother was off limits. Her elder brother can only belong to her.

When they reached the door, the chauffeur drove over and slowly came to a halt next to the large fountain. A faint breeze scattered some droplets onto their faces. On reflex, Xu Zi Xuan lifted his hand and shielded the boy’s face.

“Xiao Yi, I’m sorry, ge ge was wrong.” He lightly held the heavily bandaged hands, afraid of using force lest it hurt him, yet unwilling to release his hands, and could only softly apologize.

Zhou Yun Sheng had been in a rather dazed state all this while. He stared at the thin and pale young man, doubt and suspicion heavy in his gaze. This person seems to have transformed into someone unrecognizable overnight. As a matter of fact, Xue Zi Xuan indeed bore little resemblance to his former self. His casual attire was crumpled, his hair a little messy, his jaw covered with a faint shadow of stubble. His eyes, which were normally deep, still pools of calm, were now filled with anxious concern and some other unimaginable emotion.

The once haughty and aloof musician was now just an ordinary man overwhelmed with fears and worries. He was apologizing to Huang Yi, and even referred to himself as his brother? Were his ears deceiving him?

Zhou Yun Sheng attempted to dig at his ears, but the fat gauze wrappings around his fingers prevented him from doing so. He wanted to get as far away from this mental case as possible but found himself stuffed into the backseat of the car and securely wrapped in the other’s arms.

From his memories, Xue Zi Xuan learned that although his rebirth was a step too late, his beloved youth has not yet met Xue Yan. There was still a chance to turn things around. The thought of Xue Yan filled him with fear and dread. He unconsciously tightened his hold on the boy, his arms locked firmly around the thin waist.

The scent of the young man’s cologne washed over Zhou Yun Sheng, and he began struggling uncomfortably. The back of his head was suddenly caught and pressed down onto the other’s shoulder. The scent grew stronger, emanating from the warm and sturdy body beneath him. This intimate closeness sparked his unease.

A medical check-up was unnecessary, Xue Zi Xuan’s brains were definitely broken. He is staring at me like a starved wolf faced with fresh meat after a hundred years, with a beastly hunger in his eyes. Zhou Yun Sheng’s lips curled in a feral grin, his heart gloating and impatient.

Xue Li Dan Ni intended to get in the car as well but saw her son raising an arm to pull the door shut with a slam. He calmly instructed the chauffeur: “To the hospital.”

“Young Master, Madam and Young Miss have not entered.” The driver turned around to remind him.

“Don’t worry about them, just drive.” Xue Zi Xuan has regained his usual icy calm. His eyes, which were reddened from crying, were like dark bottomless pits. He has always been a monster who lacked empathy, and while being in the empty space for thousands of years, his feelings grew even thinner. In this world, the only person who could make his unfeeling heart beat, the only person who could make him feel alive, was now securely clasped in his arms. Nothing and no one else mattered to him at all.

Pierced by his cold stare, the chauffeur hurriedly stepped on the gas pedal and the car peeled off. Xue Li Dan Ni chased after them shouting, and was even grazed by the gravel on the road. Covered with cold sweat from the pain, she watched as her son remained unmoved, and the car receded into the distance. Realizing that her son was unheeding of her cries, she turned around and limped back, hurriedly demanded: “Where is Xiao Zhou? Quickly get a car and chase after them! The child has gone mad. Mad!”

Xiao Zhou, the assistant who was in charge of watching over Zhou Yun Sheng, ran to fetch the car from the garage. Xue Jing Yi and the housekeeper supported Xue Li Dan Ni by the arms on both sides, their faces full of worry and dismay.

“Mom, what’s wrong with ge ge?” Xue Jing Yi cried, her eyes red. In fact, when she saw her elder brother embracing Huang Yi as he wept, her heart had wept as well, twisting with pain. It had taken much control on her part not to pass out at that point. The abrupt changes to her elder brother’s personality had really left her shaken and restless.

“I don’t know either, we must ensure that he stays in the hospital for a couple of days for a more thorough check up this time.” Xue Li Dan Ni wearily massaged her temple.

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Translator’s Thoughts (Moonlightfrost10)

Regarding whether XZX loves the ZYS who can play the piano or the real ZYS…hmm the author claims that he loves the real ZYS but to me, I think he loved the ZYS in the past life. Even then, he wasn’t infatuated with the image ZYS put up but instead knew quite a lot about the real ZYS as he had “stalked” him in the past life until ZYS died (when he was too lazy to put up the innocent act).

However, in this life, he is willing to love ZYS regardless of who he is because he is ZYS… which is kind of like infatuation, but at least he still loves ZYS regardless of who he is now (which is quite different from the past life) and whether or not he can play the piano (or any other thing the future ZYS could do). He doesn’t actually question why ZYS can’t play the piano or likes so many different stuff and just accepts it, which is kinda strange but I guess that he just thought it was a butterfly effect due to his rebirth. If I say any more, I would be revealing spoilers so yeah.. have fun with the next chapter 🙂

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Chapter 3.5 – Back to the Human World

Xue Li Dan Ni was startled by the flash of fervor in her son’s eyes. She hardly dared to believe that the faintly twisted expression on the young man’s face belonged to her son, who did not even wrinkle his brows nor shed a tear after the death of his own biological sister. What had he experienced? Or who was it who caused him to become like this? Maybe, could it be just her own imagination?

As the car drew near to their destination, a villa stood out in the depths of a green, luxuriant golf course; the wheels of the car ran over the road scattered with loose gravel, making a rattling noise. Xue Zi Xuan clenched his fists and gritted his teeth, his eyes growing more and more dry.

He repeatedly took deep breaths; fear and anticipation became a swirling mess in his chest, making him feel even more pressured. At this moment, he finally understood what homecoming anxiety felt like. The soul, which had once upon a time yearned to be given a second chance, has finally been granted its deepest wish. But now that his wish has been realized, he suddenly felt so heavy and timid, hesitating to approach.

“We’re home. Zi Xuan, what’s wrong? Are you feeling unwell? I told you to remain at the hospital but you wouldn’t listen! Xiao Wang, drive us back to the hospital!” Xue Li Dan Ni had exited the car and waited for quite a while, but realised that her son had not moved. She bent over and quickly looked inside, but saw that his face was pale and his forehead was beaded with cold sweat, looking like he was in immense pain.

“I’m fine, there’s no need for the hospital,” Xue Zi Xuan answered mutedly. However, if one listened carefully, one could discern a faint tremor in his voice, choked with pent up emotion. He blinked quickly, suppressing the tears that threatened to form, and got down from the car. He took a few steps forward, then stopped, staring up at the villa backlit by the sun.

“Big Brother, go on in, it’s cold outside.” Xue Jing Yi sidled up to him, urging him softly as she reached out with both hands and attempted to hold his arm.

Xue Zi Xuan evaded her before she could get too close, and continued walking forward, his steps slow and hesitant at first, then his strides grew longer as his pace quickened, just as he was about to reach the doors, he quickly jumped up the steps two at a time, and pushed open the heavy, wooden doors.

The living room was empty, the sounds of gossip and laughter between the assistant and the nurse rang from the kitchens. Upon hearing the front door being opened, they came out to look, before surprise flashed over their faces.

“Mr. Xue, you’ve woken up?”

“Young Master, you’ve just come back from the hospital, I’m making some congee right now, would you like a bowl? Oh, the mistress and Young Miss are back as well.” The nurse Xiao Deng quickly walked over to help Xue Li Da Ni with the luggage and led the pale-faced Xue Jing Yi to sit on the sofa.

Xue Zi Xuan ignored them, walked around the first floor in a circle but could not find the person who he was looking for, before realising that he wasn’t downstairs. Subconsciously, he looked up towards the second floor, and just at that moment, a young boy appeared at the head of the stairs, peering down at them.

“Mr, Mr. Xue, you’re back.” Zhou Yun Sheng’s line of sight briefly met Xue Zi Xuan’s deep eyes, before he immediately looked away. He stammered out a greeting, while inwardly sighing to himself: Discharged so soon? Sure enough, only the good die young, but the evil live for a thousand years.

“En, I’m back.” This time, I will protect you, let’s start over, alright? These words once ran through his mind repeatedly in his dreams, but when his dream had become reality, he found himself choking up until he could not carry on. He ran heedlessly up the stairs and seized the thin youth into his arms, hugging him in a death grip as he trembled.

“I’m back, I’m finally back.” He buried his head in the boy’s warm shoulder, not letting him see the deep grief and bitter remorse on his face, nor his tears as they started to fall.

He opened his mouth and attempted to speak again, but suddenly realised that, at this moment, besides feeling the youth’s breathing, heartbeat, and body temperature, there was nothing else in the world he could ask for. He forcefully suppressed the urge to cry out, his heart flooded with sorrow and ecstasy, causing him to shudder uncontrollably, the youth clasped in his hold also shaking with him.

Zhou Yun Sheng could feel the spreading wetness on his shoulder, could hear the stifled sobbing sounds; the usual high and mighty person was currently cutting a very sorry figure as he hugged him tightly while shedding silent tears, his grief so obvious, and so heavy. Downstairs, the rest of the Xue household stared up at them in bewilderment, hesitating to approach them for fear of stimulating Xue Zi Yuan further.

Zhou Yun Sheng suddenly wanted to laugh. What was up with this whole situation? Ignoring everyone else and hugging him while crying, had his brains gone soft after being discharged from the hospital? He could neither understand nor sympathise with his grief. What could be more grievous than having your own heart dug out? He hasn’t even started crying yet, what qualifications does Xue Zi Xuan have to cry?

He forced down his loathing and resentment, and whispered, “Mr. Xue? Did something happen?”

The other didn’t reply, only tightening the hold around his waist, to the point that he felt like he was about to be squeezed in half. Left with no other choice, he poked at the youth’s head, his fingers sending up spikes of pain as he did so. He asked again: “Mr. Xue, if there’s anything wrong it’s best to say it out, don’t keep it inside, Aunty Xue and Jing Yi are very worried about you.”

Xue Zi Xuan finally stopped crying, and his trembling gradually stilled. He lifted his head and looked at the boy with reddened eyes, his slender fingers combing through the soft hair, which was left to grow out, and finally gave a faint smile. He wasn’t mistaken, this was indeed his youth, his innocent, sixteen-year-old youth.

At that moment, all his fears and anxiety turned into joy and gratitude as he held Zhou Yun Sheng in his arms. Xue Zi Xuan gently brushed aside the boy’s hair from his face, and pressed a light kiss on the fair cheek, a kiss that was filled with endless sorrow and reverence.

It wasn’t just the Xue family who was stunned stupid downstairs, even the usually quick-witted Zhou Yun Sheng was dumbstruck. He pressed a hand to his cheek, his eyes round with disbelief.

Xue Zi Xuan’s tranquil expression lasted only a moment, when he touched the many bandages around the boy’s hand, he immediately sank into a panicked state: ” What happened to your hand?” These pair of hands, which were regarded as a world treasure, has it ever had to suffer the slightest bit of injury?

At this moment, all the memories of his current life, which were buried in the deepest recesses of his brain, suddenly came thick and fast. He had brought this boy here with murderous intentions. He had rejected the boy’s touch, rejected any attempts at familiarity with him, and even refused to eat at the same table as him. And in the end, he had forcefully slammed the lid of the piano down on the boy’s hands, crushing his fingers.

He could scarcely believe that this cruel man was his past self. He lightly clasped those injured hands, his fingers trembling slightly, so afraid that any carelessness on his part would cause further harm. His heart ached unbearably. It was as if the one who had suffered hurt was himself instead. He didn’t know when, but this youth had become his all and only, how could he not ache for him? How could he not hurt?

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Translator’s Notes:

homecoming anxiety-近乡情怯 literally something when you are near your hometown you are scared

only the good die young, but the evil live for a thousand years– 祸害遗千年, Literally translates to ‘scourge for a millennium’, usually referring to how bad people tend to be long-lived.

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Chapter 3.4 – Back to the Human World

Xue Jing Yi face was red, extremely embarrassed, staring at the hand that had been flung away, she did not speak for a long time. Xue Li Dan Ni impatiently said: “Do you have no brains? Why would you suddenly ask about him? He is still locked in the villa, he can’t run away anyway.”

Realizing that the other party is her daughter’s brother after all, and speaking like this would be inappropriate, Xue Li Dan Ni snorted and turned to see Fu Bo. Fu Bo nodded, replying that there was someone in the villa watching the young boy, he definitely couldn’t run.

Seeing their reaction, Xue Zi Xuan’s heart continuously sunk. Has everything begun yet? Cold and ruthless death ploys, unscrupulous and unbridled exploitation, false and hypocritical treatment, and that accident that caused the youth to leave him forever. When he thought of Xue Yan, remembered his wedding with the youth which shook the world, it caused his heart to squeeze in pain, his body to shake uncontrollably.

“I want to be discharged right now!” He no longer folded his clothes neatly, but crushed them into a ball and randomly shoved them into his suitcase.

This action would by no means be done by her severely OCD son. Xue Li Dan Ni became more and more worried, but could not do anything about her stubborn son; she could only let her assistant complete the discharge procedures.

A luxury car slowly stopped at the hospital entrance, the driver got off the car and opened the door for his employer. Xue Zi Xuan quickly got in and saw Xue Jing Yi, who had followed him. “Go to the front row,” Xue Zi Xuan commanded, his tone indifferent. He couldn’t really say what kind of feelings he had for this sister of his, his love had already been worn away cleanly, but he didn’t have the energy to hate, it was impossible to be his feelings at the beginning, now there can only be indifference.

If he can, he does not want to appear in the same space and time with her. However, since he has returned, he could only take it that she did not exist. He did not want to have the slightest connection with her.

Xue Jing Yi had received a large blow and looked at him with sorrow. Her pitiful expression not only did not make Xue Zi Xuan remorseful, but reminded him of his past life, how his sister used her weak appearance to cover up her treachery, and how decisively she implemented that murder.

If it weren’t for her, he and Xiao Yi’s relationship would not have gone to an irreparable state, however, he himself was also guilty, so forget it, no one had the qualification to blame the other.

His eyes feeling hot, Xue Zi Xuan once again had the urge to cry, but he held it back. In the decades of repent and waiting, he has long learned how to struggle while things were falling apart; how to keep himself on the brink of despair but not fall. As long as that person is still living far away from him, as long as he could get information about him through television and the Internet, he will continue living, continue guarding by him.

So on the second day after receiving the news of his death, his heart went completely cold.

Now, he has returned, and the youth was also here, there was nothing better than this, no miracle more wonderful. Xue Zi Xuan clenched his fists hard so that he would not let himself cry because of ecstasy, but his increasingly heavy breaths leaked his inner agitation.

“Son, what happened? Are you uncomfortable? Should we go back to the hospital?” Xue Li Dan Ni said worriedly. The medical room at home was specially built for Xue Jing Yi, there were only the instruments and drugs for treating heart disease, for her son’s inexplicable coma and emotionally uncontrollable state, it is more secure to stay in a hospital.

“Driver, drive faster.” Xue Zi Xuan did not answer, but instead lowly hurried.

“What happened to you? Your face is so white but you are not willing to see a doctor, do you want your mother to worry to death?” Xue Li Dan Ni could not stand such a son. Used to his cold indifference and calmness, it was the first time that she had seen him so frantic and fearful. What exactly is he afraid of?

“Mother, I am fine. I want to go home.” Going home, seeing his beloved youth, then he will feel better, better than any other time; his broken heart can be patched together, his empty soul can be refilled, the love that was born because him and died because of him can now produce countless beautiful flowers.

If he can have a pair of wings, he wants to fly to him now, hold him tightly and firmly in his arms, rub him into his chest and embed him in his flesh and blood.

[T/N: I know this sounds a bit weird but urm that was the Chinese.]

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Cold and ruthless death ploys, unscrupulous and unbridled exploitation, false and hypocritical treatment, and that accident that caused the youth to leave him forever- 

残忍冷酷的杀局、肆无忌惮的利用、虚情假意的对待，还有致使少年永远离开他的那场偶遇。。。。if you want use google translate this sentence was so bad

Google: Cruel and cruel killing, unscrupulous use, false treatment, and the encounter that caused the teenager to leave him forever

Me: Seriously?

it was impossible to be his feelings at the beginning– 爱已经消磨干净，恨也没了心力，原来绝不可能，唯有漠视 …I was kind of confused about what that was referring to but I think it means his feelings towards XJY at the beginning of this whole saga in the past life

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Chapter 3.3 – Back to the Human World

His mother who had been tortured by her prison life until she did not even seem like a human anymore, was at this moment quickly approaching him, wearing an expensive customized suit, her well-maintained face not having a trace of wrinkles. She was still that madam of high society, the world-renowned violinist, not the one everyone called a murderer.

Suddenly meeting each other, while Xue Zi Xuan felt astonished, at the same time, he also felt a deep loathing. He gave up struggling, and looked at her with an indifferent gaze, the tears in his eyes instantly evaporating.

The security guard saw the well-dressed Xue Li Dan Ni, with a bunch of assistants behind her holding her luggage, realized that this person had a strong background and immediately let go of the young man before stepping back.

“No patients have run out of the mental health department. You can check with the other departments.” The walkie talkie timely sent a reply, which made Xue Li Dan Ni’s face darken. But she didn’t say anything, just reached out her hand to support her son who was standing shakily.

Xue Zi Xuan muscles tightened, his heart fiercely resisting, but he did not show it. He looked at his mother for a while, before noticing the coldness of his feet, finally bursting out into cold laughter. This sad appearance, how could his Xiao Yi see this? I have waited for hundreds of thousands of years, one moment is nothing.

He extracted his arm out of Xue Li Dan Ni’s embrace and walked towards the elevator. When the door opened, Fu Bo and Xue Jing Yi ran out from inside and saw him, their faces lighting up in surprise.

“Young Master, quickly put on your shoes.” Fu Bo said as he placed the slippers on the floor.

“Brother, are you all right?” Xue Jing Yi anxiously asked.

Xue Zi Xuan was completely not in the mood to talk to them, in fact, he did not want to pay attention to anyone in the Xue family. He couldn’t forget the sins that each of them had committed, and couldn’t forget how they had laid the stage for the murder of his beloved. If he couldn’t even forgive himself, how could he possibly forgive them? No, even in death he would not forgive.

He put on his shoes and walked into the elevator silently. His attitude of seeing but not seeing made Fu bo and Xue Jing Yi feel very embarrassed yet worried. Xue Li Dan Ni was also very worried when she got to the top floor, she immediately asked the doctor to give her son a consultation, the result was naturally being no problem.

“The EEG and ECG scans have come out, everything is normal. If you are not at ease, you can let him stay for a period of time so we can observe him,” the head doctor recommended.

Xue Li Dan Ni was just about to agree when Xue Zi Xuan vetoed in a cold voice: “No, immediately help me complete the procedures for discharge.” When he said this, he looked down at his watch and confirmed that at this time, Xiao Yi had been taken in by the Xue family. His mind was blank, without the memory of this world, but had the youth’s every move, every smile, engraved into his bones.

If he had a soul, then it was also definitely written into the deepest part of his soul. He didn’t know if this world was real, but as long as there was him in this world, whether it was real or illusory, was there any difference?

“Why don’t you stay a bit longer? I have already helped you to push back your performance half a month later. Everything is insignificant, only your health is the most important.” Xue Li Dan Ni naggingly dissuaded.

“Exactly Brother, look at me, I can’t do anything I want, just because my health is not good. Do you really want to be like me?” Xue Jing Yi mockingly laughed at herself.

Xue Zi Xuan was unmoved. He opened the closet and packed his bags and seemingly unintentionally asked: “Xiao Yi*? Where is he?”

[*T/N: Xiao Yi – Jing Yi and Huang Yi’s nickname sound the same, so Xue Li Dan Ni thought XZX was talking about XJY]

“Isn’t Xiao Yi just here, are you silly? Doctor, does my son really have no problems?” Xue Li Dan Ni mistakenly thought that the “Xiao Yi” her son was referring to was her daughter Xue Jing Yi, originally she was not at ease, now she was even more anxious. The person was right in front of his eyes, yet Xue Zi Xuan still asked for her, after fainting, did he damage his brains? The doctor shrugged and said that he did not know. He said a few words and left in a hurry.

“Brother, I am here. When you were in a coma, I was always accompanying you.” Xue Jing Yi tried to hide her shyness and took the initiative to take her brother’s arm. Knowing that she was not the biological daughter of her parents, her inner joy was far more than her fear. Without a blood relationship, she would be able to openly be with her brother, these tumultuous feelings would finally be able to be at peace.

The arm that she had touched felt like it had been wrapped around by a snake, cold and disgusting. Xue Zi Xuan immediately pushed her away, grabbed his baggage and backed away, before narrowing his eyes and said: “I am talking about Huang Yi, where is he?”

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Chapter 3.2 – Back to the Human World

Fu Bo immediately turned off the fire, rushed out from the kitchen, and slammed the emergency button next to the bed. The doctors and nurses quickly rushed inside in less than five seconds and were just preparing for an emergency rescue when the various instruments that kept screaming were instantly quieted. At the same time, the beautiful youth lying on the bed slowly opened his eyes.

He stared blankly at the white ceiling for a while. Only when he heard the doctor’s anxious call, did he slowly turned his head and looked at his right hand which was held by Xue Jing Yi. The blurry eyes suddenly sharpened, and the look in his eyes was so cold and violent that Xue Jing Yi nearly screamed.

“Why are you here?” Xue Zi Xuan had not figured out the situation yet, but he immediately retracted his hand reflexively. The list of people he wanted to see after he woke up definitely did not include Xue Jing Yi; no, he did not want to see anyone, he just wanted to find Xiao Yi, find his beloved. Why even after he died, these people still did not let him be at peace? He turned away and saw Fu Bo, who stood outside the crowd of people, causing a few points of disgust to be added to his gaze.

Xue Jing Yi was frightened still by his tone of hatred and rejection. She clutched her chest and took two steps back, unconsciously shaking her head. Her brother seemed to have completely changed in one day; changed so much that she didn’t even recognize him.

Several doctors surrounded the hospital bed, carrying out various examinations on him. One of them opened the eyelids of Xue Zi Xuan, the slight sharp pain made his entire body stiffen. He stared at them, his expression gradually turning from confusion to doubt, then also to disbelief and fear.

“I’m fine, all of you go out,” he muttered huskily, his attitude firm.

The indicators returned to normal; the doctors saw that Xue Zi Xuan’s mood was wrong, so they decided to wait for him to calm down before sending him to the medical examination department for further examination, and left one by one.

Xue Zi Xuan waited for them to leave first then immediately sat up and checked his palm. No, there was nothing on his white palm, the scar that made him incomparably grateful had completely disappeared. Or maybe, it had not appeared yet.

Finally realizing his situation, even if it was just an imaginary dream that he would awaken from any time now, it was enough to make Xue Zi Xuan tear up in happiness. He jumped out of his bed, barefoot, wearing hospital pajamas, and rushed out.

“Young Master, where are you going? You forgot to wear your shoes. The floor is cold.” Fu Bo grabbed a pair of slippers and chased after him.

Only then did Xue Jing Yi recover from her shock, and with a white face quickly followed behind. In her mind, she repeatedly echoed the question when her brother was awake – how are you here? That tone held no expectation, happiness, or affection, but only increasing disgust, as if looking at her one second more was a form of unbearable torture.

Because her body was weak, she often fell ill, causing the entire family to suffer with her. From young, she had practiced the ability of observing people, striving to make herself more sensible and intimate, to avoid being rejected by them. However, the more serious her illness was, the more her family showered her with love, so her feeling of anxiety slowly diminished. Especially her brother, who was indifferent and cold to others, yet gentle and considerate to her, made her feel extremely proud of herself.

But just now, the look her brother gave her was hidden with so much hatred. Why? Exactly what did I do wrong? The problem lingered in her mind, making Xue Jing Yi especially alarmed.

Xue Zi Xuan ran across the hallway, down the staircase, and ran from the nineteenth floor all the way down to the big lobby in the hospital. His crazy expressions and unpredictable manner attracted many people’s attention, causing them to stop and gawk at him. The security guards realized that the situation was off, and quickly went up to stop him, repeatedly using their walkie talkies to ask the mental health department on the sixteenth floor if a patient had run out.

Xue Zi Xuan struggled violently, but was eventually subdued by the combined force of the two people.

“What are both of you doing? Let go of him!” Xue Li Dan Ni, who had rushed back to the country and did not even had time to put down her suitcase, appeared in the hall, and at first glance saw her son, who was surrounded by a crowd of people, cutting a very sorry figure.

His hair was messed up, his clothes torn; he had a crazed expression, both his ink black eyes were filled with tears as if they would fall any time now. She could hardly believe that this was her son, the one who exuded a bright aura everywhere he went. He was so agitated, so violent, his teeth tightly clenched, and even from far away, she could see the bulging blue veins on his forehead.

“Mother?” Hearing the familiar voice, Xue Zi Xuan quieted down, turning his head to look at her, his expression becoming more and more confused. Supposedly dead people have appeared in front of him one by one, making him even more confident that his judgment was right. He had returned, had returned to the past when everything had not happened yet.

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Chapter 3.1 – Back to the Human World

In the perfect dream space, Xue Zi Xuan slowly opened his eyes. He had initially thought that he would leave the human world forever, but he didn’t know why instead he arrived in a boundless space. Here hung countless bright stars, the densely packed lights formed a wide silver river flowing below his feet, while he stood rising and sinking, searching in the empty wide space.

In the beginning, he felt that this place was most likely the nai he bridge* or the nether world, the place where people went to after death. So he patiently waited, waiting for the person who left before him to come here, to see him one more time. Even if no words were exchanged, even if it was just the brushing past of shoulders, as long as he could look at him from afar, it was already enough to comfort Xue Zi Xuan’s heart that was so hopeless it broke.

[*T/N: nai he bridge – the bridge that souls cross after death to the underworld]

Time slipped through like sand, the years quietly flew by, perhaps he had waited for a few decades, a few centuries or even tens of thousands of years, but in the end, he still hadn’t been able to meet him. His anticipation gradually turned into despair, until his heart turned to dust. Turns out the cruelest curse was not being hated by your most beloved person but rather the heavens not even giving you the chance to see him once more.

Even if Xue Zi Xuan was unable to receive his forgiveness for the rest of his life, it was still better than eternal separation. Xue Zi Xuan slowly started to go crazy, trying to break free of the shackles of the empty void and run to the world where his beloved was. While he repeatedly thrashed and struggled, he suddenly had a faint, mysterious epiphany. This place was not the nether world as he imagined, but instead a separate space.

The seemingly unleading feeling in his mind told him that gods exist in this world, and he was a god. He frantically absorbed power from the broken star galaxies, and finally one day, the space began to shake, tear, and collapse.

Xue Zi Xuan wrapped all his strength around his body, trying to resist the forces of attraction caused by the collapse of space. One by one, he saw the stars around him break into powder, the broad galaxies disappeared into a crack in space, and a powerful force enveloped the void space. It was the Lord God, who had summoned his creations into their most primitive form for his use.

Thus the unbroken stars and galaxies instantly melted into a stream of data consisting of 0’s and 1’s and rushed to the Lord God.

Xue Zi Xuan was also summoned by the Lord God, it hoped that he would become the most primitive form to feed himself. Only until then did he suddenly realize that perhaps this place was not a different space, but a virtual world. He was not some high-level creature with a soul, but a series of simple data.

He was not stupid, on the contrary, he was extremely clever. When the virtual space turned into a series of data streams, he had realized that the Lord God was malfunctioning. It was under attack and on the verge of destruction, as such, it needed a huge amount of energy for support. If the Lord God was destroyed, could he break free and travel to other worlds?

Xue Zi Xuan did not know what the future was like, he only knew that he definitely had to leave, definitely had to find his beloved, even if he died, he had to die in the same world as him. No matter what, whether he had a soul, whether he was alive, as long as the person he loved had once truly existed, then he would also have existed.

Because of that person, he achieved eternal existence. This conviction made him become incomparably strong, unexpectedly, he broke free of the unscrupulous plunder of the Lord God. In a split second, the Lord God disappeared, and a soft and warm force enveloped the space, allowing the broken stars to join back, and revived the lost galaxies.

Xue Zi Xuan couldn’t explain why, but when this force touched his body, he shed tears. Just like being in your beloved’s embrace, like returning to every beautiful moment spent with him, strongly sucking him in.

*

Xue Rui had something to do at work, and left first, leaving Fu Bo and Xue Jing Yi to look after his son in the hospital. His ward was a deluxe suite, including a bedroom, living room, kitchen, washroom, even a spacious balcony. Fu Bo was making porridge in the kitchen, while Xue Jing Yi was sitting on the bedside, eyes staring focusedly at her brother; he had already been in a coma for a day and night.

Suddenly, the heart monitor released a short “beep beep” sound, breaking the moment of silence.

“Fu Bo, it’s not good, go call a doctor!” Xue Jing Yi shouted like she had lost her soul.

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